Kicking my life into gear!

I know I haven't posted in a REALLY long time. I'm sorry for that. I felt like posting today because I have been in a slightly down mood lately. I have been having a lot of anxiety and been under a lot of stress. I have decided to kick my butt into gear and not take the easy way out of life. I am going to start working out daily and not using not being able to go to the gym as a way out. I have plenty of options at home. DUH!

What I mainly wanted this post to be about was friends. I came across this quote today and it really sung to my heart:

" A friend is one to whom one may pour out all the contents of one's heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away."
- Arabian Proverb

 I thought had a friend like that. But I was wrong. I need to find one who will truely be there for me. One that is happy for me when I succeed and build me up with an annoyingly cheesy pep talk when I don't. haha. I have found that in the love of my life. He is the person I plan on spending the rest of my life with. I am truly happy with him.
But there are just some things in life that a significant other just can't fulfill. I need girl time with my best girl friend. Someone that can live up to what I thought she was. It makes me sad that I feel like calling her up and saying I'm sorry. But I'm sorry can't fix what we have done. Nothing can. They say that time heals everything. Not this. :(

But! It's time to pick my head up and get out there. Surround myself with love and positive people. I got a job where I get exactly that. The people there can make laugh like no other. I almost peed myself at my last shift. It's amazing what a simple job can do for you mood and self-esteem. I work wheelchairs at the airport. I get to meet so many nice people who I can hear what there life is about and get some great advice. I love meeting new people. Especially the elderly because they have so much life experience to share.
AHHH I love being alive.